A First Accomplishment

I have finally done the unthinkable, well for me anyway. Vern is very proud of me for doing so. I have played and finish my first real RPG game. Kingdom Hearts II. Its a game made in Japan or China. It took me 38 long hours to do so but I did it.

I feel like a twelve year old geek. I am however a little proud of myself if I might add. I borrowed the game a month ago from a friend and finished two day ago. The story line was great the characters awesome.

The game is the second of two stories. I start out playing Roxas. A confused 15 year old. He keeps having dreams that seam so real. He finds out that he has another half. a second soul you might say. The boy in his dreams is Sora who is his real self. Roxas is considered a Nobody. He was made when Sora lost his heart. Roxas stayed in human form because Kairi Sora's love gave Sora her heart and Sora gave her his. Kairi also has a Nobody named Nomine. She too is just like Roxas but knows where she came from unlike Roxas. The story then changes back to Sora and he sets out destroying Heartless and their Nobodies. Sora and Kairi would have become Heartless if they had not done what they did for each other. Riku is a friend of Sora who has been lost for some time and Kairi gets kidnapped by the Organization XIII. A group of Nobodies who seek the Kingdom hearts. To make a long story short Sora finds Riku rescues Kairi and Joins his soul with Roxas as Kiari joins back with Nomine.

Good times right.

More Babies

There always has to be someone pregnant in my life. Not only to I work with a few woman that are getting ready to have their first child. I also have two friends of the family that are pregnant and a soon to be aunt.

My baby hunger is extremely bad right now and there is nothing I can do about it. It's so bad it is effecting my job.(For those of you who don't know I work at LDS hospital in Salt Lake on the Maternity-Newborn floor.) I can't give a baby his/her first bath anymore because i start crying. It's very hard to feed a baby a bottle now too. I work the grave shift so feeding a baby happens more often then during the day.

Vern doesn't quite understand how I feel about starting a family. All he cares about right now is what he wants. He tells me that he just wants to make sure our kids get what they want when they want (after they work for it of course) and have fantastic Christmas's. He worries too much about money and I'm ready to fall apart here. I'm so down about his negativity towards children I'm afraid it will start affecting our marriage soon.

Am I being the selfish one here? Am I asking Vern too much of him at this time in our lives. I some times feel that deep down he does not want kids at all. What should I do. Just wait it out and hope he'll be ready soon? Or should I take action upon myself.

There is a saying that a woman knows when she is ready to have a baby, even before pregnancy. A man is never ready until the day the baby is born. Would this be my case. Would Vern be upset if we were to get pregnant unplanned. Then once the baby was here would he be happy and ready?

My Best Friend

What is it that makes a friend? Is it the same age you are or different ages? Is it that you have the same likes and interest? Or would you say that its all the above and that you just get along? I believe friends are much much more.

To say you are friends is a very easy term. But, how would you determine a best friend or a life long friend. I'll tell you now that its not easy finding a person to qualify for this title. Some people it may be and they may know right away. Others, however, have a difficult time. Would you say that if it comes easy is it meant to be, or if its hard is it meant to be.

For me it took awhile to truly say that I have a best friend. When I met her I found that out of all my friends we got along the best. About the beginning of out ninth grade year I started to realize that not only did I like her the best but I depended on her. She no longer lived right down the street from me. I had moved as well as she had. We were now a good ten min drive away instead of a ten min walk.

It also happened to take her some time to figure out that I was the one to truly be there forever and to be considered her best friend. She had already had a best friend when we meet but as high school took place she lost that connection and we began growing together more and more.

Describing a best friend is very easy to me now that she has been my best friend for ten years now. She is honest, trust worthy, blunt, gives advice, takes advice, is always there when I need her and knows I'm always there when she needs me. She's beautiful, poetic, creative, independent and vulnerable at the same time, loving, and cheerful. She always knows how to tell it how it is yet comfort me at the same time. I choose her because she fills the best friend category perfectly. She puts her family first. We consider each other the sister we never had, but if we were I'm sure we would but heads as sisters do.

Even though we are so close we do fight just like any two people would. We have grown different and together over the years. I can say that we will grow old together and live out our last days side by side.

Leslie Clift (Day) you are this person and I can't ever imagine my life with out you no matter how things go between us. I love you with all my heart and I will for all eternity.

~This is for you to have forever, My feelings written for you to read for any reason at any time you need.

A Beautiful Bride

Yesterday the twenty-fourth of at 4:30pm my cousin Hailey said "I do" to Eric Poole. She stood at the alter in a ravishing dark eggshell Fairy Godmother Dress. She look so elegant and happy. Yet she was very calm with bright red cheeks and a small laughter here and there.

My husband Vern stared with disbelief that his favorite was tying the knot as we so did two years ago. Not liking her now new husband he prayed in his heart that she would be happy for the rest of her life and there after.

The ceremony and reception after were delightful and fun. Pictures seamed to take up most of the night. Vern was so adamant to have just us four taken. He even requested a copy that he would happily pay for.

As the night went on Hailey still glowing as she did when walked down the aisle father in hand. To see her shine as she did made me feel very ecstatic. Very often did I see her dull and unhappy. Knowing that she is loved by a seemingly great guy pleases everyone that knows her. The actual engagement was a very surprising affair to everyone. Especially to a friend of mine who had taken her on a few dates not long before.

All in all it was s joyous day that filled every ones heart with love and gratitude of their other halves.

~Love to all who has a special someone.

Camping

As the days get longer and the heat rises its time to bring out the traditional exersise of camping! You know your excited when the night is just not cold enough anymore to keep you out of the fresh air mountain greens.

This weekend is going to be the first of many trips this year. I can tell you this im way too excited. I can barely hold still just thinking about it. It's also going to be my puppys first time!! Ten months old and I cant wait to get him up there. Now my three year old has gone many a times and he loves chasing all the squrals!!
Happy Camping season to you all.

Mothers Day

As most of you know today is mothers day. I would like to express my gratitude to all mothers especially my own. My dear ole mother is close to my heart. I think about her all the time. We rarely get to see each other anymore, as we get older other things seam to be a priority unlike when I was still under her roof. If I were however to see her all the time I think it would be too much. As much as I love her she has changed as have I. We agree a lot more on things but she always has to put her two cents in about my life. Don't get me wrong I'm not bashing on her, nearly expressing my feeling.

Let's be honest, who here cant live with out their mothers. Not me, not even my husband, or any of my friends at that. Mothers are the best beings there are. No one cares more does more for anyone then mothers. They cherish their children and in a lot of cases put them before their other half.

I'm not a mother, yet. But I already fill like one. I take care of two beautiful boxer boys and my husband. I've had a lot of practice and I'm ready for the real thing. I cant wait to see the big blue eyes of our future baby. To hold it and love it and watch it grow and love me back. I can't wait for the painful times and the great times. Being a mother is an honor and I wish to enjoy it soon.

That Time of Year

It so happens to be that time of year here in Utah. Where Mother Nature just seams to not decide if she wants it to be Winter still or move into Spring and Summer. We have had a few days of very nice warm but cool weather. This morning however is very chilly with frost every where. It also has snowed on the past few days! Can she not get it straight. It's spring for heaven sakes and Summer is just weeks away.
I want it to be warm. I'm not one for snow on the ground when I go camping!!! Still it is a typical Utah thing. Winter just has to linger. There is a fraze we have " There is two seasons in Utah, Winter and Construction!" Neither ever stop around here.