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There always has to be someone pregnant in my life. Not only to I work with a few woman that are getting ready to have their first child. I also have two friends of the family that are pregnant and a soon to be aunt.

My baby hunger is extremely bad right now and there is nothing I can do about it. It's so bad it is effecting my job.(For those of you who don't know I work at LDS hospital in Salt Lake on the Maternity-Newborn floor.) I can't give a baby his/her first bath anymore because i start crying. It's very hard to feed a baby a bottle now too. I work the grave shift so feeding a baby happens more often then during the day.

Vern doesn't quite understand how I feel about starting a family. All he cares about right now is what he wants. He tells me that he just wants to make sure our kids get what they want when they want (after they work for it of course) and have fantastic Christmas's. He worries too much about money and I'm ready to fall apart here. I'm so down about his negativity towards children I'm afraid it will start affecting our marriage soon.

Am I being the selfish one here? Am I asking Vern too much of him at this time in our lives. I some times feel that deep down he does not want kids at all. What should I do. Just wait it out and hope he'll be ready soon? Or should I take action upon myself.

There is a saying that a woman knows when she is ready to have a baby, even before pregnancy. A man is never ready until the day the baby is born. Would this be my case. Would Vern be upset if we were to get pregnant unplanned. Then once the baby was here would he be happy and ready?